042412 

its been 1 month since graduation!!!._.

ok last night my classmate posted a stolen shot of me and him and it spark a huge wave of comments @_@ not good since my cousin saw it and my mom has plans to go to their house and that is one pic my mom cant see…. im dead

then i got back to reading watashi ni xx sinasai i was so sad TT^TT cliffhanger must die!!! ._. 

._. <— whenever i typed this to him he would always reply with —> .-. and i keep imagining him tilting his face trying to pout and show his puppy eyes and i cant help but laugh because he always look so cute doing that :] 

he also has a b2 balloon in his room =.= i misses bananas in pajamas -.- and he’s making me jealous by taking pictures of him eating watermelons ._. i like watermelons….

i also had so much fun looking at my batch mates baby pictures because they were so cute and some of the guys looked like girls one even wore a dress XD

it was sooo hot today Xl

I like you, you like me; but we can’t help but feel insecure, after all we care about each other. 

042112 

ok i’m still tired after the party it was fun! except i think i almost killed my eardrums XD

i love my friends and i missed them so much but they never let the teasing go =.= yes i know we liked each other but we’re not yet an item :D

it was really annoying though that i cant dance with the other since i just have to have my pms yesterday and i was wearing white you can always expect the worst luck to happen on me

anyways my “stalker” got himself drunk yesterday because he said i wouldnt talk to him but he didnt talk to me its not like i would ignore him if he tried to do so but how awkward would you think it would be if i would go talk to him first and we’re not even that close =.=

he also had a few shots and even drove i was kinda worried really why did his dad make him drive even if he has alcohol and it was during midnight =.= atleast he got home safe 

i also thought that my eyes were betraying me last time because he was red but he doesnt look drunk but i was right he did have a drink =.= 

today im not sure where he went disappeared like usual… and one of my friend suddenly told me he liked me of course i didnt believe him why would he like me? it was unreasonable for me but he insisted though i believe him a little i still doubted one part of me thinks that he’s joking with me

and as it ended i was right he is pulling a prank XD i told him that he might have another rival and he teased me of two timing i told him that i never 2 timed before and ask me if i wasnt 2 timing who was i truly with 

he sound so jealous even in a text that its cute XD 

041912 

I don’t know what I have to do anymore. I’m so scared that I might be another Stephanie… I don’t know if I have to continue loving him or try to forget him. I want to be able to stay strong because I know that he still likes me and yet, somehow I have the feeling that he doesn’t like me as much as I like him.

I want to ask him if he meant what he said, or if it was still true. But he said before that we should just pretend it never happened, because he knows that I still can;t engage in a relationship.

But I really do like him, I want to give it a shot and see where it would go, but I don’t want to lose him in case it did go like how I wanted it to be.

I want to know what I have to do, college is really fast approaching. And I’m getting more and more scared on what would happen in the future. On what will happen to us. 

I don’t know what would happen in the future but I really want to be with him. I just don’t know if he felt the same way, and things would be harder since we would be studying at different places so far away. He might start liking others probably even find someone who’ll make him much more happy. I’m so scared. I’m so scared. 

I want to know if I can make this work, if we were meant to be. I just want to be by his side, but I don’t know what to do.

Tomorrow’s the day of the party I’m not sure if I would be able to enjoy it feeling this way.

Should I try to forget about him like what I did with everyone before, and probably tell myself that I should never fall in love with anyone again. Or continue and see where I’ll led me?

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041712 

weeee~ Ok so today I fixed the collage I made for the yearbook and gave to my friend for the tarp they were going to print. Then I also learn that there is going to be a king and a queen for the party 0.o just when I said there wouldn’t be one =.=

then i have to make a voting program for the king/ queen not exactly easy especially since he was asleep and couldn’t help me with it. but in the end i made a mistake and got to lazy to start again~ sooo let’s just leave it to him XD

I feel so evil XD

Hope I’ll look this neat during the party :]

041612 

Yipee!!! My outfit’s almost complete. XD Today I got some earrings and a necklace but I definitely don’t want anymore accessories. I might be overdressed for the event since my mom and cousin thinks that it’s prom. But it’s not =.=

But I look good enough just hope I’m not overdressed XD

I also got a haircut and I hate it!! I missed my long hair TT~TT my hair feels sooooo short. I should have just got my hair curled at least that way my hair is still long. I’m gonna wage a war against my mom, I hate her for making my hair that short. It also made me look older >:P what my mom doesn’t like but it definitely made me look older.

But over all I liked how I looked, but hate my hair so much!!! Hope it grows a few inches longer before school starts TT^TT they cut off around 6-8 inches…

Today he told me that he’ll stalk me since I was going out and he lived somewhere. But he totally failed because when I got there he was already sleeping XD 

I was getting ready to tell him to look for someone wearing a blue tshirt and holding a feather duster XD I can bet he wouldn’t miss someone like that. =))